My name is Dorin Azérad (pronounced Duh-rin).
I’m a hair-puller and hairstylist - the trichotillomania hairstylist. I’ve been living every day of the past 20 years with trichotillomania, the hair-pulling disorder.
I haven’t always loved my trichotillomania and hair loss.
Just a few years ago, if you even mentioned the word “hair” around me, I’d flinch and change the conversation. Wanting nothing more than to stop pulling, I tried everything from doctors and meds to fidget toys and hair pulling journals. Nothing worked - my bald spots only got bigger and bigger, as did the headbands I wore everyday to cover up those growing spots.
Slowly, I decided I no longer wanted to live my life feeling defined by my deepest, darkest secret - my trichotillomania. Moreover, I didn’t want others to feel defined by their own experience with hair loss.
In 2016, I quit my first job out of college working in a local museum and decided to join the beauty industry to support those with trichotillomania and spread awareness about it and other hair disorders. I went back to school and am now a licensed cosmetologist.
Today, I’m on a journey of acceptance and self-compassion; I’m learning to love my trichotillomania, my hair (or lack thereof), and most importantly, myself. Yes, I still pull out my hair everyday (actually, I haven’t had a pull-free day in years), but I’m ok with that! I no longer live my life wishing for a day without trichotillomania, because I love my life NOW with trichotillomania.
Ya wanna know what lights me up? Helping people accept, love, and own their own hair story. If I can learn to love my hair loss then so can you!